My son, Ollie, staring out at the Pacific Ocean, fog blurring the junctures of water, land, and sky.  This is it.  This is how he might describe his world.  I say might, because he has never actually used those words to describe what it is like to be autistic.  Those are the words that I chose.  I […]

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Give Me another Chance

The art of being an Autismom or dad is one that demands patience, empathy, and above all, the ability to use diversion to avoid conflict. This has been my experience, anyhow. Ollie, like many on the spectrum, has a tendency to get “stuck” or fixated on one idea or phrase, much like a stylus stuck […]

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Sometimes I Forget

Autism sometimes takes the helm. The Captain can run around screaming “Mutiny!” but the result is the same. Sometimes, though, I don’t remember that I’m not steering this ship. I have the course laid out, the right tools to navigate, but stormy waters….well, they just happen. There are many moments, some that stretch themselves into […]

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Can’t you see…I’m thinking?

I think every parent has the ability to “fine tune” what noises they hear as they raise their children. Perhaps it is a certain whine, or maybe it’s a high-pitched giggle or the sing-song sound that goes hand in hand with someone about to tattle on their sibling… “Maaaaw—ommmmm, Timmy is eating saaaa-aannd again!” Whatever […]

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The Feels (the echolalia blues)

I remember welling up the first time I heard Ollie say “Aw, I just love you!” That sentence turned my world on its ear. All this time, I had thought that being autistic meant that feelings of love were muted, that my child was incapable of experiencing that kind of emotion. Yet, here, at 4 […]

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Mama Done Lost Her Mind

Happy 4th of July!! I know a lot of us struggle with the noise this time of year. I still have the Thomas the Tank Engine theme song blaring in my head from when I played it full blast for three hours on a 4th of July many years ago. Ollie does much better with […]

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How Did You Do That?

I do not think I will ever grow tired of discovering the things that Ollie loves to do. He sees the world in such a different way than I do. My mind is off in 50 different directions at any given moment, while his…well let’s just say he is a “one thing at a time” […]

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Through His Eyes

Learning is something that we can do by going to school, watching a YouTube “How To” video, or…just living. Ollie has taught me, daily, that we don’t all see things the same or do things in the same way–and there’s not a darn thing wrong with that. 🙂 A few years ago, we were going […]

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